Oh dear, I'm worried that that picture is a bit huge (thank you caitlin quiet!)
Well, it looked like night-time and magic and cosy and that's how I'm feeling right now...even though it's 10 to 6 here and I'm freezing (but stylishly in my new UO cardie).
I turned 19 yesterday. I had a nice day but I'm not entirely happy about it. I feel like I've slightly wasted my teenage years being mature and sensible. I've never been wildly drunk, I've never had a whirlwind romance that left me heart-broken, I've never, er, I don't know, just done anything particularly "teenage".
Oh dear, I left this post for a while and it's now 20 to eight. At least things are looking a lot more like that photo.
So I've started a diary and I've written a list of things to do before I'm 20/21 (because there's a lot of things and I don't think I could get them all done in a year, plus I'm trying to not be afraid of 20 and concentrate on 21 as a proper adult age, like in the US).
I won't bother putting them all on here but they include:
- Having a job I actually enjoy
- Go on a road trip
- Fit into size 8 jeans at least once
- Make art that I actually like
- Fall in love
- Have a dinner party and do all the cooking
- Read all the books on my book list (make a book list is another one)
- Go to a film alone
All in all, not particularly exciting but an important part of embracing a new year and a new age. I wonder how long I can keep up my resolutions of being this new upbeat, enthusiastic busy person, because I'm not exactly the embodiment of it tonight as my friends are going out and I am staying in, but I want to. When I think about going out I think, eugh. Also, part of me is saying "Do what you want for a change!" Although that sounds horribly selfish because I don't have to do a lot of things I don't want to do, it is quite teenage, and I'm trying to fit all of my teens into this last year. Which probably means I should go out tonight. Oh dear, teenage life is one huge dilemma isn't it?
oh your blog is so sweet! i've had 'go to a film alone' on my list for about two years, i'll get around to it soon i hope. i used to worry about getting certain things done by particular ages too, but the older i've become the more i've realised everyone spends their years differently, and in funny orders and with various focuses. it's all in your own time :)
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